Haibun 19

Switzerland in Milwaukee

In the 70s I lived for awhile on Warren Avenue in Milwaukee,
Wisconsin, a half a block off the fabled Brady Street where all of us
hippies and radicals lived and worked at revolution and peace, in that
order. Bernadine Dohrn stayed in a house nearby when she was on
the lam, and we did not like that very much, or her for that matter.
Just the ‘rumor’ that she was there brought out the cops, and that
meant there was heat for all of us. On the other hand, we made
enough ‘noise’ of our own so that when I think about it now she just
zeroed out in the scheme of things. After all, the Black Panthers were
just a half a block down Warren, and two radical bookstores that were
run by Trotskyites, so all of that combined with open drug use, and
our flamboyant dress and old cars made us into ‘targets’ for the
police anyway.

On one end of Brady Street were the aforementioned hippies and
crazies, with candle and incense shops, and the psychedelic record
store and ‘head shop’ named ‘The 1812 Overture’; and on the other
side was the Italian neighborhood, complete with the ‘Trio Brothers
Pizza’, which was owned by three brothers who were said to be in the
Mafia. Sandwiched right between them on Brady Street was ‘Frankie
Tomasello’s Bar’. It was like the Switzerland of Brady Street. Frankie
was not a mob guy, just an Italian who inherited a bar. The bar itself
was long and made of wood, and looked like it came out of a western
movie. The booths, on the other hand, looked like they came out of a
hamburger joint and were sandwiched in too close to the bar. The
carpet was garish, and dirty, so Frankie kept the lights low, and
served generous drinks, so no one ever mentioned it. He was usually
alone, but on Friday and Saturday he had a cook and a waitress, both
of whom I always thought were Frankie’s relatives, but I can’t prove it,
and it never came up.

Back at the far end of Frankie’s, near the restroom, was an old
Seeburg jukebox. It lit up like a Christmas tree, and had NOTHING
but jazz selections. Most of it Bop, but lots of the oldies, too. It was
like, if you want country or rock or anything else just go elsewhere. If
Frankie had to tend bar for a living he was going to do it with Miles,
Dizzy, and the best of the jazz world to accompany him, and he fed
that juke from his tip box as much as any of us. My friends and I all
loved jazz, and so when we could afford a ‘night out’, it was off the
few blocks to Frankie’s we went. Both the Italians and the hippies
knew how to have a good time, and somehow it all worked. I never
heard of a fight, or a disagreement either, just peace, love, beer,
greasy burgers and JAZZ!

brubeck on the juke
the waitress brings my beer
in 5/4 time

First published in Prune Juice!

Haibun 17

FUZZY MATH

my brain manufactures excuses for me like some automatic pilot gone entirely haywire. i lost my watch and say out loud that it was a good thing to lose that expensive nuisance. i did not want it anyway. where was my mind when i paid 900 bucks for it? right now i am typing and leaving out all capitals and most punctuation. i tell myself i am a poet and i can do that…

computing
my net worth right this minute…
the scent of jasmine

First published in Prune Juice!

Haibun 16

no preferences

for the last several weeks i have been caught up in the ‘news’ of the day. not very interesting news, not even ‘compelling’ news, just the news. and so now, when the gist of the argument rests in some dusty corner, at least for now, i have come to rest here, on my cold but very sunny front porch. i am trying to remember other times, other places, other friends (many who are no longer on this plane we ride in), and wondering where it all fits. then it dawns on me, like the revelation to st. john, that what matters is not what we think about, but what IS when we stop thinking . . .

sitting still
steam from my cocoa rises
to somewhere else

First published in:  A Hundred Gourds!

Haibun 15

Zen/Shmen

A famous koan in Zen is that: “If you meet the Buddha on the road, kill the Buddha!”, and it is obviously not to be taken literally, as taking a life is very much against the teachings. The true meaning of this koan is as varied as the person reading it, but for me it simply means the ‘true Buddha’ is the one that resides in you, and can’t be experienced externally, or through any other person. The spirit of this is encapsulated in another truism: “If you know you’re humble, then for sure you’re not.”

if you meet the Buddha give him a hug and promise a lollipop

It’s my meditation time. I place my cushions in the center of the room, face east, as is the mundane custom, and after lighting candles and incense, I cross my legs and allow my hands to assume a comfortable position. Just as I enter a deep state of quiet and all my little muscle aches finally disappear into my practice, I hear a door from another room open and footsteps head toward my quiet meditation area. It’s the three year old from down the way, who has invited herself in, and now, while desperately looking for ‘company’, enters my room. Without stopping for an instant she grabs one of the incense sticks and begins dancing around the room, waving it in the air and softly singing a child’s song to herself.

a dancing Buddha splashes candle wax on my toe

First published in:  A Hundered Gourds!

Haibun 14

Lost Thoughts

 

Memory is fluid and fickle, but words on paper, a screen, or recorded on a smart phone have a strange ‘substance’, and we writers know this instinctively. But I am stumbling, it is so hard to explain this moment, and my perception of it, to anyone else, but I keep trying, and in less than seventeen syllables. Am I shooting for a miracle? The longer I try, the more doubt clings to each word. I am so frustrated, and now I just want to put this one behind me. But I just can’t stop thinking about it!

warm rain
mosquitoes follow me
into the men’s room

First published in:   A Hundred Grouds!

Haibun 13

zany as normal

I am watching a movie with Tilda Swinton playing a wonderful role. (I will not bore anyone with the name of the movie. It won’t help you with the haibun.) She is so quirky an artist, but that quirky nature is why I suspect I always ‘buy’ her characters. She is the female Johnny Depp. We all know some strange person with twitches with odd words and facial actions who are just ‘accepted’ because they are so unfailingly ‘real’. I press the ‘Record’ button so I can watch this movie again…

the way
my jokes
are only funny to me

First published in:  Prune Juice!